Let compliments go to your heart not your head.(Lysa Terkeurst)
I'm calling out my Love Idols as Jennifer Lee calls them. The ones that say I'm not good enough and that I have to keep striving to find my worth.
Remind me who I am
My need to be known (or seen), recognized, loved, appreciated has elevated itself to idol status.
I measure my worth in comments, like, shares. And then I realize how empty it all is. It doesn't fill and satisfy the way I thought. I want my words to hold value and be well received.
lest I forget
My good enough depends on it.
The comments flatter and I don't really need you to say, "Alecia, of course you matter,"as nice at that is and I love hearing it I really need to BELIEVE it in my own heart.
Because when the words stop and I have to pull away from this space, a little bit of my heart panics a little.
God knows the voices are a plenty in this world and there is no void. But I'd be lying if the thought, "Will they forget about me?" didn't cross my mind.
I belong to You!
In those moments when I doubt my worth and if I have anything of real value to offer.
My God whispers to my heart, "You will never be forgotten. You are valued, loved, seen, appreciated, and recognized, but not for the reasons you think. But because, YOU.ARE.MINE.
My approval and my love is ENOUGH. Believe this, child."
That's why I pull away at times. When everything is going great. I pull back. I have to ask myself for whom am I living for? For whose approval?
I know my pride well enough to know I can get caught up in the praise.
Make me empty
I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting it. But when my hearts starts writing and craving it more than God, that's when I stop. And do a heart check.
Till you are my one desire
Feeling the 'have-to's come on I know it's time for a break. I 'have to' write this post, or I 'have to' send out this FB or Twitter update, or I 'have to' do this or do that because if I don't .......
I don't want this space to ever be about filling a hole in my heart, but a pouring out from the overflow.
Fill me with you, Lord
Isn't it like that with all dreams? We have to make sure we aren't living for the approval of others to fill a need to be seen or appreciated but because we already know these things, we live out our dreams to grow even closer to God and live out our calling.
Am I writing the words you want me to write?
Human nature wants the approval and the affirming nods, He knows this. He just doesn't want us to want it more than Him.
Ultimately it's about the connection-with God and others more than the applause.
Let them see You in me..in all I do, all I say, and all I write, Let them feel You.
It's about living out whatever dream God has laid out on your heart because you can't not do it any longer.
It's about wanting to not 'having to.'
It's about living out the dream with God and not making it about you.
Take it all. Take everything. Who am I without You?
The only thing we were made to be consumed by and filled up with is Jesus. Everything else with which we try to fill our emptiness leaves pangs of dissatisfaction and regret. It feels good in the moment but not in the long run. (Lysa Terkeurst)
*Hey friends, thanks for hanging out with me, it's been a while since I've posted. Sometimes I need to be quiet when my world gets loud. And it's been really loud lately. I'm so glad you are here, you are the reason I keep coming back. Love you!
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Thought-Provoking Thursday, and Imperfect Prose :)
(The italics are lines from songs I had running in my head as I wrote this post.
Maybe you recognized them? :)
Jason Gray-Remind Who I Am, Sidewalk Prophets-Keep Making Me, and Colton Dixon-Let Them See You.)