Monday, October 14, 2019

Burn It Down

"I will take action against you, My sinful children, burning off whatever is worthless, purging whatever is impure." (Isaiah 1:25 VOICE)

"But who can endure the day of his coming, and who can stand when he appears? For he is like a refiner’s fire and like fullers’ soap." (Malachi 3:2 ESV)


Do you ever feel in your heart and down to your very bones God is doing something new and good in you, but it hurts like hell? My time in the Lord has been this lately. I couldn't keep these words to myself, I had to share them with you. We may be in the fire but we are not alone. And when we know, really know He is with us, we let Him have His way. Because if we trust Him, we know in death there is life. 

Burn it down, The Lord Said.

All will be ash. And from the ash will be your remaking. You will rise from the ashes. Like a warrior after the battle, you will rise. 

All that hindered...fear, worry, doubt...is burned away. No more apart of your story.

The enemy attacked and thought he had destroyed you. Little did he know, the One who is in you is mightier than in this world. You will rise.

You will rise from the ashes. 

You will put your sword in the ground and fight the fight in confidence and good faith. Endurance is rising in you. Courage is rising. The battle is won.

Wipe the sweat from your brow.

Calm your shaking hands.

Slow your breath.

You are rising.

I allowed it.  For your good. 

Now, you know. Declare with a shout, your battle cry, BURN IT DOWN!

God, it hurts. The burning away feels like death. Surrendering to Your will and not my own is letting go of what is familiar.

Through the smoke and ash, I cry:

If it's not for me, let it burn.

If it's not for my good, let it burn.


If it's not Your will, let it burn.


Let it burn, and I will rise.

The battlefield is no place for worry or fear, it must be burned down. If you want to have victory, you must claim your authority in Jesus Christ. And let the rest burn down and be remade in Him.

"God is a refining fire." (Deut 4:24)

Down to ashes but hope rises.

"O that in me the sacred fireMight now begin to glow,Burn up the dross of base desireAnd make the mountains flow
On the aged and the young let it fall,
Thy promise now fulfill,
It will guide us on to Truth—let it fall,
And sanctify the whole.
O that it now from heav’n might fall,
And all my sins consume!
Come, Holy Ghost, for thee I call;
Spirit of burning, come!" (Charles Wesley,
O That in me the Sacred Fire)

What is being burned out in you? May I encourage you today, to not run from the fire but let it do its work. Holy fire meant to purify and set a spark. A spark to set a blaze and set the world on fire for Him.






Thursday, September 19, 2019

Rock, Refuge, Peace, and Trust



I love when God says things over and over. Sometimes I do wonder if it's because I'm not listening so He has to repeat Himself.

Regardless, over and over I see and pick up on the words rock, refuge, peace, and trust.

If you go back to the last couple of years posts you'll see several on Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."


The Lord's really been bringing home what this message means for me. I'm a bit of a controller. (ahem-as most women are ;) ) Trying to figure out how things are going to work out gives me a false sense of control.

Because when things DON'T work out the way I think they will, well... it usually leaves me feeling distraught as to how I could have been so wrong.

Over and over God says STOP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ALL THE THINGS AND TRUST ME, ALECIA.

This is hard for me :/

Life turns upside down and all I want is some sense of control and normalcy.

So not only do I still see my favorite verse in Proverbs regularly but God's been showing me more verses to lean in to such as Psalm 91:2, Psalm 34, Psalm 46:1 ...

And every single one has brought peace to my soul. As I read and pray over the verses I lean into His spirit and listen.

Some God whispers I've heard recently:

Trust the Process

I alone am your refuge. Not man, money or anything or anyone else.

Let me love and protect you.

I'm working all things out for your good.

This season is a season of being still and waiting. I'm doing a deep soul-work, and soul work takes time.

Life's a crockpot, not an insta-pot. (this one may be more of my own musings then God's ;) )

I'm hiding you, protecting you, and healing you until I know you are ready to come out. In Me you are safe.

Apply the blood of the cross to your life. Apply your faith.

I love how God speaks to His children to let them know they are loved and never alone.

When I intentionally look for Him I "see" Him everywhere.

And the grip that I've had begins to loosen out of my control and into His, right where it belongs.

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

When You Need to but Don't Want to...Forgiveness

I settled into my seat. Since the divorce, I had been seeking. I was after healing and restoration for all the broken pieces of my life. I needed it for myself and for my kids.

The course promised closeness to God and healing.

I was excited and nervous but I knew this was the place God wanted me to be. So I settled in with my small group and book and waited for the video to start. This was the beginning of my next chapter.

My heart was still raw, I was still angry and hurt.

I needed this class to help me process my emotions in a healthy, spiritual way that would move me forward.

The stagnate waters of regret and hurt were growing more repugnant by the day. I wanted to feel His breath breathed into my dry bones and make me come alive again.
And then Rock, the leader of the class said it, the words that made me sink in my seat rather than sit up and yell, Amen! 

Forgiveness.

Ugh, really? I paid for this? This was the answer to my broken heart and the key to healing?

The one thing I wasn't sure I could do. I had made a list in my head of all the things that deserved to be paid back and how I was the victim. I felt like God should side with me and take care of business and vindicate me.

His daughter had been hurt after all!

I sat through the hour-long video half tuned in and out. I didn't want to hear it and wasn't looking forward to 10 weeks of being told if I wanted to heal and move forward I had to forgive.

I deserved repayment. Right? My trust had been broken. My heart torn into pieces. That certainly felt like I deserved some kind of justice.

But over the course of the weeks, God began working and softening my heart. I saw how holding onto my hurt was blocking intimacy with Him and was making my heart toxic.

Rock (the founder of Transformation Ministries) gave an illustration of a waterfall and the water is the Holy Spirit, moving down the falls and into the river below. But hurt, anger, unforgiveness can become boulders in the water, blocking the flow of the Spirit. And when the Spirit is blocked it can't move in our lives freely. We become stopped up and can't see or experience intimacy or blessings.

God gave me a vision of a prison cell. This is where my prisoners were who had caused me pain. I wanted them to hurt too, it wasn't fair that they could hurt me and then were allowed to walk around scot-free.

I wanted vengeance! Doggone it. ( and I may or may not have prayed for such immature things like their car to run out of gas and make them late for work, or for them to smile in a really important meeting with broccoli in their teeth (ok, I'm kidding...kinda) ).

Unforgiveness makes you into someone you're not.

I wanted the guilty to stay locked up in my prison.

And yet, they seem pretty unfazed. Unfortunately, in reality, I was the one in the jail cell.

That's just what unforgiveness does. You think you're punishing the offender when really it's you who pay the price. What's so ironic is that we even have the key to let ourselves out. God gave it to us!

But will we use it?

It's not a joy-filled way to live.

I realized I needed to use my key and step out of the cell I'd locked myself in.

I wasn't saying what they did was right or acceptable. And I wasn't saying our relationship would be restored-though it could be (in some situations).

But what I was saying is that vengeance wasn't mine. Because you know what? God says when we forgive, we are handing over that person to HIM, and vengeance will be His. He will repay them for the evil they've done according to His will.

And that, friends, brings me great peace :)

The boulder that rolled over into my holy spirit stream got hit with a blast of dynamite-forgiveness- and now the flow is allowed to do what it does best...flow.

Pray, forgive, release, repeat. As many times as needed.

Praying for you friends.

Reference Verses:
Matthew 6:14-15 
Luke 17:3-4
Ephesians 4:31-32
Romans 12:19


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