Monday, December 17, 2012

Jesus Come Soon

There is Light in the dark~It's name is Jesus

Oh wow, I'm still speechless about what happened Friday. I still have no words, but it didn't seem right to carry on here without saying something. With tears in my eyes I dropped the kids off at school this morning. I spent my morning praying for God to protect them and other children around the country from the evil that is around every corner. It was hard watching them walk away.

My heart is heavy and I can't imagine how those parents and families are still putting one foot in front of the other.

And, I'm mad.

Mad at not only this young evil man with no conscience, but mad that God didn't stop him.

Why God?  how could you sit on your throne and let this happen?!

Romans 1:28-32 "28 Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done. 29 They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, 30 slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; 31 they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, no mercy. 32 Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them

Innocent lost. My mind can't wrap around it, and as angry as I am, I know God is still good and is in control. I know it. I believe it and feel it.

I know my faith and the faith of those parents is the only thing that will get them through this. Because whatever Satan means for evil, God will make good come out of it. Even this.

I know this world is evil and fallen and Satan is having his time right now. But still, those innocent babies, did they have to die? Evil showed up Friday morning at Sandy Hook Elementary and forced himself in.

Satan is attacking the young among us to divide the rest. He knows how precious our children are to us and in a low down attack he gets to us through them.

It makes my job as a parent even harder, but I am more determined than ever. I will not give up teaching my children what's right and what really matters in this world. I will work and pray and give my kids over to God, because no matter what happens, I trust Him.

And Jesus...he can't come soon enough. The babe whose birthday we celebrate next week. The man that willingly laid down his life so that we would no longer fear death, who promised he would return one day and put an end to Satan once and for all...come quickly, please.

He allows us to vent and rage, because I know He is angry too. He's mad at the way sin has turned His beautiful creation into something ugly and sin filled.

Jesus came so that we would not fear death. He IS bigger than this world and everything that happens in it.
And while I don't understand why some things happen, unfair cruel things, God said this world was going to be tough. Sometimes we understand just what He was talking about.

My momma heart is breaking, I've had to stop watching the news and take a step back from the social media sites. The tears come easily and it hurts to breathe when I think it could have been my own. What if it had been my own?!

I know your praying for those in Newtown CT as I am, but I also want to pray that we would unite. Lets not be ones that take place in pointing fingers and trying to explain why God did or didn't stop the massacre. There are things this side of Heaven we will never understand.

And the people that are blaming and pointing fingers are giving the devil even more satisfaction. He loves that we are fighting among ourselves and blaming each other for what happened. God's getting a bad rap for not preventing this horrific tragedy. But God is God, and He is in control. Who are we to question God?

Let's pray and NOT let the devil take any more from us than he already has. We are not defeated. He doesn't win. Let's pray...

These, say it better than I ever could::  God Can't Be Kept Out Rachel Held Evans

                                                        Where Is God When Bad Things Happen?  Ann Voskamp
                                                        An Attempt To Put Words On The Heartbreak Emily Freeman

                                                       Rick And Bubba Show~Preach it man!

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Friday, December 14, 2012

Soul Stirring and Teary Eyed

I love music, but I gotta say Christmas music is my favorite!

I came across this the other day on Facebook and knew I wanted to share it on here.

If you watch The Voice then you know quirky CeeLo Green. Well, he sings "Mary Did You Know" for a new Jesus movie called "The Bible" that is coming out in March and the video is AMAZING!

It's the perfect get you in the spirit of things kind of video.

I hope you enjoy.

and I dare you Not to cry!!

Have a blessed weekend!

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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

I'm Me...And That's OK

When I look into his sweet baby blues, I see his daddy looking back at me. His smile and dimples are mine, so is his innocence {or some would say gullibility}. He believes what people say and takes them literally and at their word.  He's contemplative and likes to think things through before he makes a decision. In the early morning hours you will {sometimes} find him reading in his room while others sleep.

Her stunning hazel cat like eyes are those of her great grandfather, I used to call him Paw Paw before his life was struck short in an automobile accident. She sees the world in black and white, and challenges me daily to live by grace. Her nose and chin she inherited her from her great grandmother on the other side. And that strong will, double doses from her grandmother and grandfather! :)

We often say to them "your just like so and so, or you remind me so much of me at that age." It's a reminder of where they come from, their heritage of roots that run deep.

As adults we hear those words, and we flinch in protest. And get all mad and self righteous and set out to prove those words wrong.

We will spend our entire lives running and striving to be different. How often have you said "I will never become my mother"only to wake up and realize you have become just that {Hi mom!}.

And yes, in a lot of ways I am like my mother, and my dad, and others before me, but I'm also me.
There will always be things that I want to change, and I can only pray with God's guidance and wisdom that I will become a better version of who I really am.

Our parents aren't perfect, and God knows how many mistakes I make that will come back to bite me one day. But, there's freedom in the acceptance of self. There's freedom in the grace you give yourself and extend to others.

Keeli may one day find herself saying "I hope I don't act like my mom" and she may try really hard to be the opposite of me, but there will come a day when she will realize who she is, and who I am, are all part of what's been handed down generation after generation, and that it's not as bad as she once thought.

Our genes are the backbone of who we are, but they are not all that we are. It's up to us to write our own stories and leave our own mark on the family tree.

I'm me and that's good

Thanksgiving break we took the kids to the movie Wreck it Ralph.

The main character Ralph didn't want to be him anymore, and he went to great lengths to prove he was something more. More than what others said he was. He knew deep down he wasn't a bad guy and he set out to prove it. I won't give away any details in case you plan on seeing it, but the message of the movie for me is that we can work hard to prove to others what we are or aren't, or we can see the good and bad and work on those, and accept ourselves as we are.

One of my favorite lines in the movie is from Ralph "I'm not good and that's OK, but I'm me and that's GOOD."

Accept and embrace your unique, one of a kind God made self. Everyone else, they're just struggling to do the same.

Do you have trouble accepting  certain parts of you and wish them differently? Do you fear becoming one of your parents?  Please share in the comments.

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Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Gifts For The King From The King

Christmas is upon us. Visions of
shopping, Christmas trees, and baking
cookies for friends and neighbors swirl
in our head. The busyness of it all is enough to make even Job take a pause. And with the Christmas season comes gifts.

But today I'm thinking of different gifts.
Three gifts to be exact.

Three different- not your run of the mill gifts, but still very important and much needed.

And I wonder.... would I have appreciated them or snubbed my nose?

Over the weekend while visiting a new church (we are church shopping at the moment, trying to find "the one", since we just moved)  The preacher spoke of the three gifts the Magi brought Jesus. Gold, incense, and myrrh.

 If you think back to your last baby shower or to any baby shower you've ever been to, you remember giving or receiving baby blankets, and bottles, and sweet unbelievably small precious baby clothes to the mom to be.

But gold, a candle, and some spices?? I think not.

Those aren't things that come to mind when you think baby gift. But those are the very things that they were told to bring to sweet baby Jesus.

God's provision
God knows sometimes our circumstances aren't the best and we long for something better or more. We wonder how God can make anything good out of messy ole us. Things happen that are beyond our control and we want nothing more than peace, comfort and security. But sometimes, gifts from God don't feel like gifts.

Maybe Mary and Joseph were wondering the same thing. Why on earth did these supposedly Wise Men bring such strange gifts for their baby?

It didn't take them long to figure it out though. In Matthew 2 it tells of how angel's come and warn Joseph when danger is near. That is how he knows when to pack up the family and hit the road. For their travels they were going to need that gold to buy things to get where they needed to go and for food, God's provision.

Baby Jesus like any baby was probably crying and a little fussy, after all he had left his throne in heaven where he reigned to come to earth, it was all probably a little unnerving for the little guy. All through the Old Testament we read about the priests lighting incense in the temple and how the fragrance drifted all the way to the heavens.

God in his provision arranged for the Magi to bring incense, so that when it was lit baby Jesus would smell it and be comforted and he would know that God was with him. Jesus had smelled that sweet fragrance in Heaven so many times before, so it was familiar scent. I wonder if Mary and Joseph even realized the comfort the incense brought  their sweet baby {if it were me I would have chalked it up to my mad parenting skills}.

God knew what Jesus needed before he needed it and provided it for him. That's our God! And He does the same for us.

The spices could have been used for cooking. They had the gold to buy food now God even provided spices for them to cook their food.

They could have looked at their circumstances and thought, "Wow, can things get much worse, we're hiding out with a baby and the king wants him dead?"  It would have been easy for them to look at their circumstances and their minds to go into the pit of despair.

It would be easy for us to look at what we have and think, it's not enough. A little more and all will be good.

Friends, God may not remove the storm from your life, but He will be right there with you providing what you need to make it through, Himself.

I pray this Christmas we will see God's provision, sometimes it doesn't look the way we want it too, we may want something different or more, but He has blessed us greatly with what He has given and He always gives what we need when we need it.

Blessings to you this Christmas Season!
And thanks for taking a moment to read.

photo via flickr creative commons

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Tuesday, December 4, 2012

On Leaving Iowa

Well, friends, we made the move we are officially Texans now. For better or worse here we are.
I'm not sure what to think of my new state, yet.  I've felt very unsettled so far and a little anxious, it's probably just new person jitters.

The kids started school Thursday, so I spent the day praying and being busy so that the day would go by faster. I remember moving and starting school when I was their age and that feeling in the pit of your stomach the first day, is well, kinda sickening.

But my kiddos did Awesome! 

Keeli came home and said the girls were fighting over who was going to walk her to her classes and show her around and they all wanted to sit next to her at lunch!! Praise God! That's all I can say, I'm so eternally grateful for God's show of mercy and goodness again. Why I doubt and worry I don't know, I guess I can blame my short term memory.

I didn't think I would miss Iowa as much as I do, but I do, I miss it. The sweet friends, my landlord and his family,  my church, all of them. It's hard starting over, and I don't know how the military families do it, it makes me have even more respect for them. Cause starting over is hard. You have to be so intentional about making community, it's not like it used to be when the neighbors would show up with bread or cookies and welcome you to the neighborhood. People just don't do that anymore. Now, if you want to meet the neighbors you better make your own bread and take it to them.

Keeli and her friends at the moving bonfire we let the kids have weekend before we moved.

Jackson and his buddies at the bonfire.

Me and Lori :) (Lori hope you don't mind ;))

Lee and Sandy-treated us like family while we rented his parents house-Thank You!!

Larry and Suzy-Brother to Lee, and took to the kids like a second set of grand kids ~Thank  You!!

The moving truck packing our little farm house to take us somewhere new

I've sorta neglected writing on the blog, because it's hard when you don't have Internet and your just too darn busy to do anything. But slowly I'm getting there and we are getting more settled. So hopefully all these words in my head will find a home here in this space soon.

I'm hoping everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and is preparing for Christmas. Can you believe it's already December?! Here in Texas it is 80 degrees, I'm not going to complain too much, but it doesn't feel like Christmas weather. We're out walking in shorts and had to turn the ac back on, oh well, I'll take it over 5 ft of snow any day :)

Many blessings to you...
I'm off to make something to introduce ourselves to the neighbors...wish me luck!

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