Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Somewhere In The Middle Is Where You'll Find Me




The Middle-Story of my life!

Throughout my life I seem to find myself somewhere in the middle. (Maybe it's from being a middle child? Something to ask a therapist about one day ;) )

The middle would not only describe me and my personality-not bubbly but not Eyore either-but also life.

One month ago we were experiencing mountaintop living-no middle ground to be found.

There's something about the mountaintop of life. God answers prayers, things start happening and you wonder, how in the world did I get to be so blessed?What did I do to deserve such goodness?

When God answered a prayer that was a longing in my heart; to move closer home. I didn't think it would happen, in my mind all I could see was right in front of me and there was no way moving was in the cards. 

But it did. And it happened unexpectedly and so fast we almost got whiplash!

Valley living is what I like to refer to as living in the middle. It's a waiting period. A standstill. Stuckville.

We are waiting for our home in Texas to sell, (until then we can't move forward with a new home) waiting to find the perfect home-aka one we can all mostly agree on. Waiting for life be settled and a new normal to start.Waiting waiting waiting...and maybe a little whining.

Waiting and being patient are two things required in life, and two things that have never come easily to me.

God puts me in these waiting seasons and it makes me anxious, angry, and so many other things at one time.

The wise words of Paul, being content in every circumstance comes to mind (Phil 4:11) and I close my eyes, inhale and exhale deeply. I try, I really do. And most days contentment and joy is mine for the taking.

My life may have a lot of middle seasons, and maybe yours does too? They seem to never end sometimes.

The waiting for dreams to come true, relationships to pan out, forgiveness to replace the hurts and anger, the job desperately needed, the right diagnosis from the doctor after months and months of tests.

The middle can feel like agony and make everything feel distorted, like looking in one of those crazy mirrors at a circus. Life seems disoriented and problems are WAY bigger than they actually are.

It's easy to lose sight of the small blessings that are right in front of you because you can only see what's not happening

But the middle is necessary. We know God does His biggest work when He's quiet.

I'm learning the middle stretches my faith...and patience. It's also the place where I question everything I am, I do, who I am. What matters and what doesn't. It's a reality check of my plans, reasons, and purpose.

I don't like the messy middle, but it does make me appreciate those mountain top moments even more and not take them for granted.

Today if you find yourself in the middle, know, I'm there too. More times than not in my life, this is where you'll find me.

Sometimes on fire, sometimes lukewarm and always trying to move forward and not go back.



When walking through the refining fire I have to learn to better embrace it instead of going to my default of whining and wondering when it will end. Go back and read the first line of Shelly's quote again.

Since when did my faith become about needing to be certain that things were going to work out? Where does that leave faith?

God is going to work out ALL things for those that love Him. That includes me and you!

Here's my prayer for being in the middle.

Dear Lord,

I pray that when I find myself in "the middle"season of life You will renew and remind me of what it means to have faith. Help me  to rely on my faith when my circumstances are screaming that nothing is going right. Lord, help me to stay in the faith and know who I am and remember who You are. You are the God that sees and the ultimate provider. You long for me to know You and trust in You. I am yours. Today, tomorrow, and forever. You are between my faith and plans. Between the boat and the waves. You are the only safety net that I need.  I trade my fears, my failures, and my not-enoughs, for You. Please Lord, more of You and less of me. 

Lastly, I want to thank you for the middle seasons, I know they are there to refine me. Make me stronger and help me grow. Help me to embrace the middle and the lessons to be learned.

In Jesus' name,
Amen



Linking with my friends, Soli deo Gloria, #TellHisStory, Holley Gerth, Winsome Wed, and Thought-Provoking Thurs

11 comments :

  1. Love this post - and good luck with the house selling and what's next! Living in the middle can be so hard, especially when we get a glimpse of what's next and get anxious to move ahead.

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  2. Thanks, Kathryn. Boy is it hard to not jump ahead! Must wait though :)

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  3. Sigh. I just know I'm related to Doubting Thomas. And for sure, I was one of the last in line the day patience was handed out.
    I love how He loves me anyway. Deep. Wide.
    I'm grateful.

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  4. You and me both, Linda. You and me both. Oh Lord, forgive me for my unbelief. I DO believe!

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  5. Too often waiting and whining are associated together with me, too. But yes, the middle is necessary for SO many things in life. You'd think we'd learn to make peace with it earlier on. ha. Praying your prayer for myself too. Thanks, Alecia!

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  6. Oh, and War Eagle!!! So happy you're back on the Plains. :)

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  7. Alecia,
    Ah yes, the messy middle and the lack of certainty as a prelude to exercising faith...I appreciate how you're being honest about how hard it is but at the same time you're gripping onto what is true about God....sounds like you're flexing your trust muscles to me :) blessings to you and praying today that your house in TX sells soon and God provides the just right new home for you and your family.

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  8. The middle can stink...and feel relentless. Maybe even a little hopeless. But I agree - God uses those times in powerful ways and not just for our benefit, but for the benefit of others He brings into our lives. Because we need people who understand and know to come alongside of us and remind us of the hope that is in Him.

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  9. Love this. I always try to do more for my corner of the world. never feels enough as this world is so big! thanks for sharing this!! May God continue to open our eyes and hearts to the things unseen

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  10. So much changes in my heart during the waiting. I am starting to see why it is important, but I still don't like it!

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  11. Thanks for sharing so many wonderful thoughts in this writing! Romans 8:28 has always been my favorite Bible verse since someone shared it with me when I was in my teens....(of course, that was just a few years ago! :) )

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