Tuesday, January 14, 2014
What Is My Dream?
For so long I've wandered through the ho hum of life not really sure what I was made for. I remember asking the question even as a child.
"God why am I here!?
I'm wondering now if the seeds of doubt were planted by the enemy to make me doubt my worth from an early age and live in the fear of being made for nothing.
The devil attacks the young. He knows if he can throw them off course early they will be thrown into confusion that could last a lifetime.
God found me though. And told me that I was made to set prisoners like myself free. How, I wondered, could I do anything like that?
What did that mean?
And if so many others had the same dream how was mine any different or special? Surely they could do a better job than me.
I'm not a writer, not really.
But the day I obeyed and created this blog and started to write I surprised myself.
All the things that I had been pondering and keeping inside came pouring out.
I had no idea I had so many words in my head or heart.
But God did.
For a long while the only ones that knew about this place were the ones that stumbled across from a link- up I would bravely join.
I'm brave in the anonymity.
And if you (are lucky enough to ;) ) know me in real life, you won't hear me ever tell you I write and have a blog. We'll become Facebook friends and one day you will notice an update, There's Something Different has shared a link.
You will click over and sometime later I will get a message that goes something like, "I didn't know you write, wow you are really good!"(ok I may have added that last part in) :)
I'm someone that longs to be seen without being seen or really known. I guess it's the middle child in me. Yearning for attention and will get it one way or the other.
I still don't know where this space will lead, it's definitely opened up new opportunities and new friendships. I get glimpses here and there, but nothing concrete. So, for now I'm not going to worry about the future too much. I'm going to enjoy the now and do whatever God lays in my lap for each day.
What about you? Do you know what your dream is? I'm sharing with some other awesome dreamers today for the 2nd link up at God Sized Dreams.com
You can join in too!! Meet you there!
Also joining Soli Deo Gloria
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