Want patience? He'll give you plenty of opportunities to flex that patience muscle.
Want to trust Him and depend on Him no matter what life brings? Want a faith that can't be quenched by life's battles? You will think you have become a modern day Job.
God's funny and quirky in ways that aren't always amusing to us. His ways are definitely not ours!
So, a couple of years ago when my husband and I found ourselves in a pickle. It was a testing of faith that I had never gone through before.
I knew it was a make or break it faith moment.
We were living in Iowa (beautiful state with beautiful people) and still owned our home in sweet home Alabama. We were renting it out when a tornado came busting through the area and did a good bit of damage. That's not what we were even stressed about. Thankfully we had an amazing realtor and insurance.
We were stressed over a balloon payment coming due (yep one of those=nightmare)at the end of the summer. Renters were moving out and we had NO luck not even any nibbles on trying to sell it.
We were looking at possible foreclosure or at the very least short selling the sucker. This house was causing so many problems financially and within our marriage all I wanted was to be done with it. We were fighting all the time about what to do, and where were we going to get the money etc.
We had worked so hard to be debt free, to stay on top of our bills and have good credit and live within our means.
And due to circumstances beyond our control that was all about to change.
Would we have to declare bankruptcy? Would we really have to join the thousands of other home owners that were forced to foreclose? Where was God in all this? Why wasn't He opening doors and preventing all of this from happening?
I was tired and quite frankly beaten down. We had done all we could do with what we had. Now it was up to God to step in...or not.
Through all my praying and fretting I had an epiphany of sorts. So what if the house was foreclosed on? If that's the worst thing that ever happens to us then, fine, so be it. We had our health. Our children were alive and doing well. We had each other and our extended families.
Take the house!
I am done thinking about it, fighting about it, crying and worrying over it. DONE.
I had gotten to a point that even if everything gets stripped away, even if we are forced to walk this painful road.
I was still going going to worship and believe.
we lose our home,
our credit is ruined,
we go into debt.
Even if the worst case scenario really happens and I am pressed in on every side and feel like the walls are caving in I am not crushed. And I will not shrink back like someone that has no faith
People will either grow closer to God or further away when hard times come. Personally, I can't imagine getting through a trial being away from God. I've had my moments of sulking and being angry and refusing to talk to Him for a while, but quickly realized life doesn't work very well without Him and I always came back.
This world can take our homes our possessions, even our lives but that's all it can take. It doesn't feel good when crappy things happen, in fact it downright sucks.
Finding all the little things we have to be thankful for makes all the difference. Along with real belief in your faith.
As it turns out I feel like our act of surrender and saying, Ok God, if this is your plan I know you will see us through it. I don't like, at all. But if this is the road we are to walk we will walk it.
Was the key to unlocking the door for God to move.
That's what it took. Total and complete surrender.
We were able to refinance at the last moment, and we were able to sell the house. It sold for much lower than we needed, but it sold. While we're still dealing with the fall out of the loss, we are nothing but thankful.
The holiday seasons can be stressful, money is tight, or we've lost loved ones. I pray that whatever you are going through, you will be able to lay it all down and say as we did, I trust you, I believe, and even if this horrible rotten thing happens, I will still worship and believe.
"The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."(John 10:10)
The devil only wants to mess with us and do everything he can to steal our peace, I pray this Christmas season he doesn't get away with it. Jesus came to take away our fears and worries. Let His peace surround your heart and mind in your season of waiting.
One of our favorite songs to listen to in the wait is this song by John Waller "While I'm Waiting"you may remember it from the movie FireProof :)
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