Friday, November 8, 2013
Truth is that I started working full time this week at a job that seemed perfect....and I hate it! And I feel guilty. Guilty because I've prayed and cried out to God for work and he answered. And now all I want to do is quit. (Which I am, bc I have to go home for Thanksgiving and need off, but being new I have no vacay or personal days stored up. I will give my two weeks notice today and resume job hunting after the holidays (pray for me?) )
I hate that I should love and appreciate it because I get to work from home while the kids are at school, but I don't. I feel ungrateful and discontent. Others would give anything for a job like this, so why can't I be happy?
Truth is right now I'm still in a place of figuring out my place. I've been in our new home for a year now and it still does not feel like home. I'm wondering when this grey cloud is finally going to lift and I will feel like me again.
Someone that likes her life, makes the most of bad situations, tries to find the good in everyone and everything.
I still had some posts left in my Fearless series, but I haven't had a moment to really sit with my thoughts and write since this time last Friday. So the series is hanging on day 22 right now. It may stay there...end there.
I got further than I thought I would so I'm proud of that.
This is the truth of my life right now. It's different than I thought it would be. I'm not really liking it.
Thankfully God holds the hand of the needy, and I'm so very needy right now.
And I'm thankful for new friends, online friends, and far away real life friends, and family that are praying for me and encouraging me.
I have so much to be thankful for.
at 9:20 AM