Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Just Enough Brave


Life has a way of creeping up on us and sometimes overwhelming us before we know it. Life, circumstances, people they don't always go the way we plan.

I apologize if this place has been a little dark and gloomy lately it's not what I it to be. 
I want it to be real and authentic but sometimes it can be a little too much so.

I read a verse this morning from YouVersion app and it completely described how I feel right now.

Matthew 5:3 "You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule."
In every situation when we get out of the way and let God do His thing we give ourselves margin, we give others margin, room, to have faults. 

God will meet us where we are every time. Starting a new job last month was terrifying. It was more than I expected. I was overwhelmed by the number of things that I needed to know but didn't. By the number of calls I was getting on a daily basis and people wanting answers that I just didn't have. Being on the phone for 8 hrs a day with two 15 min breaks and a 30 min break for lunch put me at a level of high alert sweaty fear.

I depended heavily on my fearless verses and my husband reminding me each day that I wouldn't die, it was going to be ok. I believe the devil smelled my weakness from a mile away and planned a perfect attack every single blessed morning. 

But you know what? God saw me too. And He gave me just enough brave for each day. My husband was right I didn't die from the calls, snarkiness, yelling, and yes the occasional cussing me out for something I had nothing to do with. In fact I grew more resolved not to quit and see this job to it's end.

He gave me courage for each day, right when I needed it. Each day I have grown more confident in my ability and through it all my attitude has stayed positive (mostly). My attitude has helped the most and has been the most helpful in putting out the daily fires. 

Cause, really, it's hard to yell at someone when they are being empathetic and agreeing with you, even if it is to keep from getting yelled at :)

This situation has shown me that I can do hard things, and it won't kill me. God really will give me just enough brave for the step I'm on, I have no reason to be afraid. None, at all!

Sometimes we make up theses imaginary scenarios in our heads of how things are going to go, and we just know things aren't going to go well or we are going to end up looking like idiots.

That fear keeps us from doing the hard things that we need to do in order to make progress. When we push forward even with fear nipping at our heels we are letting it know that it's not the boss of us. We may always be afraid and always feel the fear, it's like a little trusty  travel companion, though unwelcome, it reminds us that we are on the right path. We are never more like mighty warriors when we don't give in to it and keep going.

Fear and anxiety may be my constant companions, but I don't have to let it define me anymore. I don't have to let it rule my life and decisions. And you don't either.

While this job may be coming to an end this week, I'm thankful to have had it for so many reasons. It pushed me beyond my comfort zone, I brushed up on my customer service skills, and it paid for our Christmas bills (big YAY!!), plus all of the funny stories that I get to tell about the cra cra people out there! Good stuff.

I hope to be back writing more regularly after the holidays I have a ton of posts in my head that are screaming to get out all at once.

What about you? What hard things have you done lately or are about to do? You can do hard things too, friends ( I think that need to be on a t shirt, what do you think?).

If you have prayer requests please leave them in the comments if you feel comfortable or drop me an email. I'd be honored to pray with you through your hard times.







5 comments :

  1. I have missed hearing your voice!! Hugs coming your way and know that I am praying for you friend!!!

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  2. I'm your next door neighbor at Em's! I'm so happy to "meet" you and yay for paid off Christmas bills!

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  3. Oh Alecia, this had me smiling. Love reading of how God is moving in your life and giving you the courage to move beyond your comfort zone. Such a great message for us all. Sending hugs your way and keeping you in my prayers.
    Thank you for being a part of the Three Word Wednesday family.
    Love you,
    Beth

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  4. Thank you for stopping by my blog so that I could find you! I recently published my first ebook. That was a hard thing. I dealt with all kinds of scary on that one! But with God, HE made it possible.

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  5. Alecia,

    I hadn't been here recently so wasn't aware of the new job or the stress. I'm sorry I wasn't. Good for you though for persevering in hard circumstances, for bravely stepping up each day. It sounds like you have a good man beside you too, encouraging you and speaking truth to you too. :) Our men are gifts, huh?

    May work get easier. I have my stressful days too, and appreciated your post.

    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jennifedougan.com

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