I remember when my daughter was little and her new daycare had to close due to the city wanting to build a baseball park on their plot of land. We were panicked to find a new daycare. Our daughter loved her school and she was well taken care of each day.
I started calling around but there were waiting lists months deep.
There was a church with a daycare that we had heard great things about, I knew that this was the place...but they had a list, a long one.
We didn't think she would get in.
It was coming down to the wire, old daycare was about to shut it's doors forever and new daycare still hadn't called.
It was about this time I had a sort of new spiritual awakening. I worked with some spiritual women and they were influencing me in a good way. I had been praying again, sincerely, and even getting up and reading my Bible. It was the start of a quiet time that I still do today.
I really started praying about this whole daycare situation and praying that the list would open up at this church so that K could get in. I felt because it was at a church it was perfect, everyone seemed responsible and professional. I just knew this was the one, and I needed God to supernaturally open up that list for my baby.
And he did!
He answered my prayer( in the nick of time, I might add). Why does he do that?
I couldn't believe it! God heard and answered my prayer, I was telling everyone.
It wasn't long though before my little angel started flexing her strong willed muscle. A child that once loved to go to school and be the teacher's helper now didn't want to go at all.
She would cry and cling as I dropped her off. Scream my name as I left. Oh my word y'all, it was AWFUL!
I would cry all the way into work and rush to the bathroom as soon as I would get there to clean myself up-
crying and Alabama humidity doesn't make for a very pretty sight.
I started wondering did I get it wrong? Is the place that I thought was an answered prayer really not? Why would God answer my prayer and then have it turn out like this??
I kept thinking give it time, she's adjusting she will get used to and then she will love it!
What did happen is that she looked miserable and unhappy every time I went to pick her up. And Lord was she sick in there, constantly. I can't even remember all the gross stuff she picked up, and then shared with me.
I remember my husband saying, "Well I guess you were wrong, this wasn't a godsend."
How did this turn out so bad? I prayed, received, and then hated this place so much!
I realize now, that He did answer my prayer, just not in the way I was expecting.
I don't know why some things turn out they way the do, or why prayers even answered ones don't turn out to be blessings like we think they will be.
I do know for me, that this particular answered prayer was the point at which I seriously considered being a stay at home mom. I couldn't deal with my heart being broken every day, and besides I wanted to be home with her.
Maybe, sometimes God gives us what we want to show us it's really not what is best for us.
He gives in to a job or a move to put us on the path he wanted us to be on all along.
Just because something doesn't turn out the way we hoped and dreamed doesn't me we aren't going to have a beautiful life. There is a reason for every season. Hope for every heartbreak. We may not see it now, but one day we will.
What about you? Have you ever had an answered prayer that didn't turn out the way you expected?
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