Tuesday, March 12, 2013

What I Need More



Today's challenge for the Dream series is: What do you really want more of in your life? Will you dare to say it out loud? 



If I had to say what I needed more of, it would have to be courage and graceMore courage to take those leaps of faith with my eyes open instead of shut like a scared little child. Courage to hope, dare, and dream in spite of maybe looking stupid, even if it's only me that thinks so,...especially when there is the possibility to fail.

And grace for those times I do fail or come up short and want to beat myself up instead of starting over, again.


I've realized lately that these thoughts and fears of failures go back further than I thought.  I've given myself the short end of the stick many times so that if I fail I won't end up looking like a big ol loser that thought she could do something but fell hard on her bum instead. 

Short goals, short fall.

And for a while being a part of the Dream Team started feeling like a curse (sorry) because it seemed like we all had similar dreams, to write. But as I read Holley's book I came to realize that "even if someone else's dream looks, sounds, or even feels like yours-it's not the same." 

Comparison was indeed nipping at my heels and I started to wonder why in the world would God give everyone the same dream?

He didn't.

As I looked closer, each of us on the team may want to write, but God has laid different plans on each of our lives. Some are writing on their journeys to adopt, some are dealing with painful pasts, some share through photography...etc. 

Though it felt the same initially, they are very different, because we each lead very different lives and have our own unique experiences.

Comparison and insecurity can be funny feelings. I think God's kingdom is big enough for us all, and being secure in that and knowing that I have a place in His plan is so reassuring. This alone gives me the confidence to keep going.

What about you? What do you need more of (or less) to help you with your dreams?



But I know insecurity
Is the worst of my own enemies
He sings his lonely song and I will dance
As he robs me blind
Right before my eyes

There’s no thief like fear, no
There’s no thief like fear, no
Oh oh oh oh oh oh

Set me free, set me free
Oh my God set me free
From these chains holding me
Oh my God set me free
"No Thief Like Fear" Jason Gray<---click link to watch video


linking with Holley and the other Dreamers, wanna join in?
And Soli Deo Gloria








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13 comments :

  1. Alecia, this is so good. I think you put a voice to some of the things a lot of us have felt, though I can only truly speak for myself. :) It's so easy to let comparison rob us of seeing God work, and you're right. Even though some of our dreams seem similar, He's got a unique plan for each one. I love your words today, friend...what a blessing they are! So thankful you are part of this journey. Blessings! :)

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  2. So thankful for you Mel! It's good to know I'm not alone on this one. It was hard at first being in such a large group, but I had to stop focusing on everyone else and just keep doing my thing :)

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  3. Alecia, I have felt the same thing. Sometimes I think, "How could there be room for one more blogger/writer/speaker?", then I think back, especially to that time when I was going deeper in my faith. All of those blogs/articles/speakers that poured so much into my life (without even knowing it). Sometimes I'd be having a rough day, and one article would be enough to change my whole mindset (minutes before my kids would come home from school or my husband from work). I thank God they decided to write that day...what a difference it made. I thank God for you too! : )

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    1. You are so right! I've had the same thing happen to me many times. God uses each of us in different ways, and I'm so thankful He does.

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  4. Alecia, I don't get to comment often but I always enjoy your blog. Whew, I can relate to that need for courage and grace! Honestly, spying on all of you Dream Teamers has helped me step out in courage and grace myself. ;) I'm so grateful that each of you had the courage to join the team and share your dreams and how you're taking steps of faith toward them. I'm so glad you're confronting the fear you've felt, because I know from experience how stifling that fear can be. Keep stepping out in faith!

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    1. I'm glad you're here Kim! And have been encouraged, that encourages me, so thank you!! Fear is defeated one step at a time, when i do nothing I let it win. And I don't want to let it win anymore! Thank you for your kind words :)

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  5. Comparison is always nipping at my heels and even more so at my heart. I struggle to find the place of my dream within the dreams of all other bloggers/writers/speakers but I have to agree with Kim. Seeing all my sister dreamers walking the same path and coming through on the other side is very encouraging.

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    1. It has been hasn't it? Knowing and seeing that they struggle the same way I do, but keep walking faithfully forward anyways, is so encouraging. I see that I'm not the only one that struggles..what a relief!

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  6. Alecia, what a powerful post! I love how you said, "I need more courage and grace. More courage to take those leaps of faith with my eyes open, and grace for those times I do fail or come up short." Definitely something I'm working towards in my own life. Your words are such a blessing today! Thank you :)

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  7. This is such a true post. You touched on so many things I've experienced. So thankful God doesn't leave us unchanged as we go through life. And I love that Jason Gray song ... and so many others of his. Thanks for sharing.

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  8. Oh definitely this: "I think God's kingdom is big enough for us all". Yes! I don't need to know anything else, when fear and comparison strike I will just. remember. that. Thank you so much, Alecia.

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  9. I needed this today. Thank you so much. I have quit blogging for now.

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