Momma watch me, watch me, are you watching??!
I hear this quite frequently from my now 12 year old daughter, always have. She wants to make sure she is seen.
And honestly, don't we all?
We want to be noticed, praised, loved, and seen.
I see you trying so hard to fit in with your new clothes and hair styles. You are trying out a new attitude like you are trying on a new pair of shoes. You walk around seeing if it suits you, who cares if they're uncomfortable, as long as others approve.
I see you are trying to hide your insecurities and fears and put on a brave I-know-everything face.
You can't scare me or fool me.
I know who you are deep down, you're a little girl trying to find your way in this world just wanting to be seen and loved without being rejected. Blending in enough to get noticed by the cool kids, but not enough to be singled out for something grand or misunderstood for being different.
I see the girl who loves big and gives unselfishly. You may dish it out, but it's only cause you want to be heard. To know you matter and that you're important.
Well, you are, important. And you are seen whether you like it or not and you are loved, deeply. Not only by me, but by God. He knows why you weren't born with blond hair the way you wish you were. Or why he gave you a little brother to boss around instead of the sister you begged and prayed for.
He knows why he gave you to me and your daddy, and why we spend countless nights scratching our heads and wondering what in the world are we going to do with you. :)
You infuriate me and make me laugh all at the same time, and honestly I don't know what I would do without you.
God knows. God knows what He is planning on doing with your blaze your own trail attitude and He knows you will try to go where others have gone before and failed. He knows that even if you end up turning away for just a little bit, you will return one day. Because He promised me long ago that if I raised you in the way you should go you wouldn't depart from it, and I plan on holding him to it!
I see you, my girl, little miss bossy pants with big ideas and dreams of five kids through adoption and me staying home with all of them, so you can be a teacher :) (ain't gonna happen by the way)
You've known it all since the day you were born and no one could tell you any differently. I knew from the time you were just barely walking, which of course you took your sweet time doing, that God had big plans for you.
He sees you and he knows what that big personality and always thinking brain of yours can do.
I see your insecurities even when you think no one is looking. I know deep down you're scared and you just want to be noticed, I know, me too.
So when you're out in this big world doing the things God has called you to, and you feel like no one cares and you're all alone, remember, you're seen.
And I am so proud of you!
Happy 12th Birthday girl of mine! I love you!
What about you? Do you know you are seen and loved? We all want to be seen without the big spotlight because being seen, means being known and possible being rejected.