Thursday, January 31, 2013
What Can Happen When You Say Yes
The last two years have been a whirlwind. Two moves both far away from family and friends and everything familiar.
And in this craziness I picked up writing.
I had felt a nudge towards it a year or so earlier, but just wasn't brave enough to ever hit publish. Then I thought maybe God was leading me to this as a way to make money, though I wasn't sure how. But instead of that I see it as a ministry and a place to tell stories (I have affiliates on the side now to donate to Compassion, not for me)
He's using this to open me up and make me brave.
Writing became an outlet and gave me something to look forward to each day. Living on farm in Iowa was nice, but being in seclusion wasn't so good for this girl. It was hard.
I was often times surprised at how the words would flow and the things that would come to mind to write about.
It would get easy to waste days sitting in front of the screen, time would pass so quickly and before I knew it the kids were home from school.
Writing was healing and meditative. I always liked to journal in my private time, so it was kinda the same just not with the privacy.
And then I started linking up with other blogs and meeting new people and a whole new world opened up!
I've met people I never would have met otherwise; some that have infuriated me with their words and others that have encouraged me and my faith like nothing else.
I'm the girl with so many questions but not enough courage to ask them out loud for fear that I will be labeled in some way. But with blogging, I've met others asking the same questions out loud, and the world doesn't feel so scary anymore.
My faith, my courage, all have grown as a result of writing. I'm not the same person I was two years ago. I'm more sure of what I believe and why. And my questions are a result of a deepening faith that I know now it's ok to ask.
Even from the church.
It's ok to question God about things that don't settle right with you, because he's always willing to give an abundance of wisdom to those that ask. And I ask a lot :)
The voices of guilt and condemnation have gotten quieter because they know now they don't hold as much power as they used too.
I never could have imagined that I would ever consider myself any type of writer; fear of rejection would have held me back before. But now I know that that is part of the process. This is life. My hope is tied into who God says I am, not in what others say I'm not.
This space here, helped me get through a lonely time. I'm not sure how well I would have come out of Iowa without having this space to turn to. It kept me distracted and from going crazy.
While God answered many prayers and led me on a new path to self discovery, He knew I was going to need something to keep my idle hands busy. Thank you Lord, for knowing what I would need when I didn't.
If you are looking, searching, it's ok we all are. Find something to make you brave. That's forces you out of your comfort zone and into God's arms of daily portion. It doesn't have to be writing, whatever you are passionate about, whatever you would do if you had a money and time and no chance of failure (in a perfect world). That things that gets you excited and you would do everyday if you could. Take a step towards it today!
Are you holding back from something that God is calling you to out of fear or uncertainty? I hope you will find your brave and do it anyways, even if you fail, at least you can say you tried!
Let's claim the power of "Yes" this year and vow to live Fearlessly!
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