Wednesday, November 7, 2012

When God Says "Go"





Jesus calls me to GO, but I hold back. What will others say? What does Go look like before I make any real commitment?
Will I dare to fly?And see for myself what true freedom feels like?

We have a tendency to not trust beyond what we can see or control. Sometimes we need that push out of the tree to fly, to make our wings (our faith) grow strong.

"Faith means stepping onto the path that looks so much like it goes in the wrong direction." Emily Freeman {Grace for the Good Girl}
God didn't call us to safe and comfortable...and this is a hard pill to swallow because sometimes that is all I want. I don't want to risk getting rejected telling them about Jesus, I want them to like me, it's safer to talk about the kids or how dirty our houses are and so I'm challenging myself to step out and to be more daring and to stop worrying so much about being rejected for being bold.
"Always preach the gospel, and if necessary use words" {source unknown}

In my ladies Bible study we are doing Stuck by Jennie Allen and the chapter of Discontent really hit me hard, it was a tough two weeks of weeding and pulling. I didn't like what was being pulled up.

In the Bible study Jennie had quoted Katie from Kisses From Katie {you've probably heard of the book}, in this post Katie responds to some questions that people have asked her about really being happy with her life as a missionary. At age 18 Katie moved to Uganda and decided to stay. She is now 23 and the mother to 14 adopted daughters and feeds hundreds more.

"...I want to go the mall and spend a ridiculous amount of money on a cute new pair of shoes. I want to sit on my kitchen counter chatting with my girlfriends and eat a whole carton of cookie dough ice cream....But. You know what I want more? ALL the time? I want to be spiritually and emotionally filled every day of my life. I want to be loved and cuddled by 100 children and never go a day without laughing...I want to be taught by those that teach...I want to feel needed, important, used by the Lord. I want to make a difference and I want to follow the calling that God has planted deep in my heart. I want to give my life away, to serve the Lord with each breath, each second..."

Wow.

I was in puddles. The faith of this young girl humbled me. I read it to my kids that night and they too were in awe. I wanted them to get a glimpse of another young person that knew life was more than things, friends, and middle school drama.

When I think of missionaries I think Super Christians, something I could never do, and at one time thought I would never do. The thought of going to another country where Christianity isn't tolerated and where I could be persecuted for it, never appealed to me.

And I'm ashamed. Ashamed that I regard my life so highly, because in the Bible it says he who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life {John 12:25}

Is it unrealistic to try and live like this life doesn't matter? That the things that everyone else holds so highly isn't that important? Am I being a Pollyanna?

Trying to be content with where I'm at in life and where I want to be is becoming a daily struggle. I honestly believe my first and foremost mission field is my family. So why is it harder to be Jesus to them than it is to someone I hardly know? If God calls me to nothing more than ministering to my family and the circle of people He brings into my life, I want to be content with that and not have this feeling that it's not enough.

But...If  God is calling me to more, to go, then I want to trust in His timing and that He is moving in the hearts of my family so that they will be willing to join me on the journey.

Lord, help me to be bold for you. To be courageous and not let fear keep me back from loving and telling others about you. Whatever it is, wherever it is prepare my heart and feet today to get ready to go.
In Jesus' Name~Amen.




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This is part of what God has been showing me, I'll write more in another post.

Linking with:: Imperfect ProseSoli Deo Gloria, God Bumps & God Incidences, Women Living Well, WIP, Winsome Wed


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30 comments :

  1. we are link-up neighbors at WIP...oh Katie Davis...she is from where I live...and I got to hear her speak...it was such a blessing...and yes...we need to go where ever God calls...to our family...to our community...to the world...He does not weigh the call as we do...He is just looking for willing vessels...no matter where we are. blessings to you~

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    1. He does not weigh the call as we do..He is just looking for willing vessels...so true!!
      Thank you for this!

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  2. I love this. I am really struggling right now because I want a clear, bright, and shiny path highlighted before me, so I'll know exactly what to do. The thing is, I could spend my whole life waiting when there's plenty I already know to do. I want to get it all just right so I find myself paralyzed sometimes by indecision. Sorry to get off track here, but my heart really does long to go. Thanks for a great post.

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    1. So do I! But in His timing I guess. Learning to be content is where I'm at right now and finding joy in what he is calling me to Today.
      Thank you for visiting! I enjoyed reading the guest post over at your place today.

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  3. Thanks, Alecia, for your honest thoughts. Katie's words: I want to follow the calling that God has planted deep in my heart. I want to give my life away, to serve the Lord with each breath, each second..."

    I think God gives us each unique callings (which may or may not involve moving away) and it has been a process for me to hear His voice above the din of other voices...keep seeking Him wholeheartedly and He will make a way for you :)

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    1. It is so hard isn't it? To be still and quiet enough to hear his voice and make sure it's from him and not us.
      Thank you for your encouragement, and stopping by my place.

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  4. Alecia,

    I enjoy being here again tonight. Katie's book and blog is powerful isn't it?

    I could relate to your honesty about it being easier to serve strangers than people we know sometimes.

    Smiling with you and thankful for our Abba's kindness,
    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jennferdougan.com

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    1. I'm glad your here Jennifer, and I'm glad you can relate. I find myself reminding myself a lot to be more Christ like to my husband and kids, I don't want them to see two different people. One at home and one in front of others.
      Thank you for your kind words and coming by!

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  5. I remember after a stirring missionary service at our church - - a young mother told Pastor, I believe God is calling me to be a missionary. The Pastor looked at her with her brood of 6 children, and remarked, Lady, God has called you to a mission field of 6 sweet children, don't let Him down, but nurture them and teach them to love Jesus. The woman was satisfied with his answer, and I shall always remember it. We are called at times to a mission trip or longer stay, but usually God is giving us a missionary heart to work for him where he has planted us.

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    1. I believe your right! and with 6 children I would have stayed put too :)
      The mission field starts at home... thank you for your words here.

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  6. Oh some good stuff here tonight, Alecia!! Something to really think about. Thanks for sharing your heart!

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    1. thank you Jenn. I thought I replied to you but it's not showing up, computer is acting wonky.
      Thank you for coming by I really appreciate it!

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  7. This speaks to my heart so much today. Being in the center of His perfect will is the best blessing we could ever have, if we only trust Him enough to get there! Thanks for the beautiful and honest post, and God bless!

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    1. Mine too Laurie,and I agree, if we only trust Him to get there! God bless you too!

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  8. yes alecia. yes. God is doing something big in you, i can see it. the kind of faith that hurts and heals at the same time. and it's beautiful.

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    1. Thank you sweet Emily, I only hope to have the courage to say yes.
      Makes me smile to see you here!

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  9. My favorite quote, cant remember where I first hear it, " God does not call the equipped, HE equips the called." That spoke to my heart as I too have issues leaving my nest. Such an inspiring post my friend, something I needed to hear today!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!
    Blessings~
    Stacey

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    1. I've heard that quote before too, but had forgotten it, thanks for sharing it here. So glad you came by Stacey, bless you, friend

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  10. Great thoughts, and I love that book as well.
    Truly this mission field at home is a difficult one... but sinners are there, as well as here, and He loves all of them. May He continue to direct our paths as we seek to pour out His love that we have received, both here and there.

    Emily
    www.weakandloved.com

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    1. "but sinners are there, as well as here" great reminder.

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  11. What a story about that young girl who moved to Uganda. A mother to 14 by age 24? I thought 5 kids was a lot! Anyway, I love Stacey's quote in the above comment. When we step forward in faith and we don't lean on our own understanding, God will make straight our paths. You are exactly where you should be now, and when/if it's time to be somewhere else, you will know it in your heart.

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    1. I hope so Galen, for now I'm waiting. Thank you for your encouragement. And yeah, 5 or 14 kids is a lot!! :) My two keep me plenty busy, but then again, God knows what we can handle. Thanks for stopping by Galen, please come back soon!

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  12. I'm glad you're trying to figure it out, the going. Shannan at Flower Patch Farmgirl did a 31-day series on "going" during the month of October; you should check it out.

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    1. Thanks for the heads up on that series, as soon as I have good Internet again (after our move next week) I will def check it out.

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  13. Alecia,

    You've put my constant tension into words and I can't even find the right words to respond. I said an internal "Amen" at the end of every line and now I just need to close my laptop and sit down and pray... for passion to be a missionary WHEREVER God asks- right here in the valley of mt. laundry and sticky fingers or somewhere out there on that big globe ---- THANK YOU for being honest. When I read Kisses for Katie last spring, God sparked a longing in my heart for MORE.. just more of HIm, less of me, more abundant life- whatever the "cost". Wish we could talk this one out over a hot cup of coffee, friend. And thanks for the sweet award earlier this week- I'm buried in writing deadlines at the moment, but hope to come back to pass it on and answer those fun questions soon. Blessings over your weekend.

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    1. You got me teary eyed here! We know there's more and maybe God's planted the seed so that when the time is right, we will be ready. Bless you, friend and a cup of hot coffee sounds wonderful!!

      No problem, I felt the same about the award, it's a lot of work,but kinda fun, so don't worry if you can't do it; it was honor to nominate some blogs I enjoy reading.

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  14. Hi Alecia, wow, great post and great inspiration. I too am fearful of "just go" Trusting God for strength if/when He calls
    God bless
    Tracy

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  15. Alecia,

    Thanks for your comment on my post "He Surprised Me." Only a gentle God can wield gentle sarcasm, huh? Thanks for stopping by.

    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jenniferdougan.com

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